Friday, March 19, 2004
What's keeping me awake?
I've got lots on my mind these days, and I think that's adding to my weird insomnia episodes. I talked to Victor on the phone tonight about some of it, and he brought me back to reality a bit... but here's some of the stuff that's keeping me awake.
1. Quitting my job. I've already told my bosses that I'm moving to Dallas in June. I'm not too worried about quitting this job; it's what happens afterward that scares me. Here's hoping I can find a rewarding and fulfilling job in Dallas, not too far from my apartment... yeah right!
2. Bills, bills, bills. I hate being in so much debt. It's not as bad as I make it seem... I'm no Save Karyn, but I still owe more than I'd like to owe. Of course, upcoming unemployment and moving expenses aren't making things better.
3. Packing and moving. If there's one thing I hate, it's packing and unpacking a house! I am already dreading the actual process of packing up my stuff, and I need to start right when I get home so that I don't get behind like last time. I'm also really sad about leaving my friends. I haven't felt such a part of a group in a long time... maybe since high school. I had friends in college, but I was always on the fringe of the group, not in the middle. After college, I always had Diana (always indispensible!!!) and her friends, but they were really her friends, not mine. I guess the closest I came was in Ireland, where I did make a lot of fairly close friends... unfortunately I only keep vague contact with a couple of them now. The prospect of having to meet new people and make new friends scares me, too. I don't want to lose contact with my Austin gang, especially since we'll be so close by.
4. Where to go on vacation? This one is actually fun to think about! Victor and I both have enough frequent flier miles to get a ticket to Europe. We want to take a trip after he finishes school and before he starts work. Once he begins work, we should be able to fly standby all the time, so we can do weekend trips a lot. But we would like a more extended trip right now. The only problem is that money is very tight. We're ruling out more expensive cities like London, Paris, Rome, Milan, etc... because Victor (and probably myself as well) would be too tempted to blow money on fashion. So we're thinking maybe Ireland (I'd love to show him around) and/or the UK, bypassing Paul Smith boutiques for Portabello Market and Camden Market if we go to London. There's always Prague, too, which I've never been to... I could go on for days.
Anyway, that's what's on my mind these days. That and a whole lot more, actually. Will I ever sort it all out?
I've got lots on my mind these days, and I think that's adding to my weird insomnia episodes. I talked to Victor on the phone tonight about some of it, and he brought me back to reality a bit... but here's some of the stuff that's keeping me awake.
1. Quitting my job. I've already told my bosses that I'm moving to Dallas in June. I'm not too worried about quitting this job; it's what happens afterward that scares me. Here's hoping I can find a rewarding and fulfilling job in Dallas, not too far from my apartment... yeah right!
2. Bills, bills, bills. I hate being in so much debt. It's not as bad as I make it seem... I'm no Save Karyn, but I still owe more than I'd like to owe. Of course, upcoming unemployment and moving expenses aren't making things better.
3. Packing and moving. If there's one thing I hate, it's packing and unpacking a house! I am already dreading the actual process of packing up my stuff, and I need to start right when I get home so that I don't get behind like last time. I'm also really sad about leaving my friends. I haven't felt such a part of a group in a long time... maybe since high school. I had friends in college, but I was always on the fringe of the group, not in the middle. After college, I always had Diana (always indispensible!!!) and her friends, but they were really her friends, not mine. I guess the closest I came was in Ireland, where I did make a lot of fairly close friends... unfortunately I only keep vague contact with a couple of them now. The prospect of having to meet new people and make new friends scares me, too. I don't want to lose contact with my Austin gang, especially since we'll be so close by.
4. Where to go on vacation? This one is actually fun to think about! Victor and I both have enough frequent flier miles to get a ticket to Europe. We want to take a trip after he finishes school and before he starts work. Once he begins work, we should be able to fly standby all the time, so we can do weekend trips a lot. But we would like a more extended trip right now. The only problem is that money is very tight. We're ruling out more expensive cities like London, Paris, Rome, Milan, etc... because Victor (and probably myself as well) would be too tempted to blow money on fashion. So we're thinking maybe Ireland (I'd love to show him around) and/or the UK, bypassing Paul Smith boutiques for Portabello Market and Camden Market if we go to London. There's always Prague, too, which I've never been to... I could go on for days.
Anyway, that's what's on my mind these days. That and a whole lot more, actually. Will I ever sort it all out?
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